I wanna complain !!! this been one whole week since i last saw my dear... stupid army make him slog so hard that he dont have time to slp.. so shitz... -_- n next wed he so suay got duty cant go zouk wif us !!! arrr.. i really wanna complain !!! ji dan... where got so unfair de.. everything also kanna him.. zzzz

he called mi one of the nights n said he felt veri miserable cos he neglected mi and he wanna cry le.. pengz..
i was dot dot dot.. speechless.. realli veri touch that i cried myself to slp..
Cos the thing is that i did not think much as it was part of his job, n to think he felt so terrible abt the whole thing, kept apologizing..

anyway.. this past week is working n working n saving like shit.. cos i m seriously super broke., never been so broke in my life b4.. so hc n cs' present got to wait le..sorrie guys.. hee.. realli no money ar.. waiting for my pay.. muahaha.. =p

finally...

i stil wanna complain !!! idiots.....

I know its late to say it.. but i am thankful for all those who remembered my birthday in a way or other. I was shocked when elaine, beng, dill, rh, wee, cindy & spenc got mi the brown roxy shorts ! They actually got it right ! n I was so pleased that Hc, Charlene & pupu(he has a new thai name-prataraponk, muahaha) treated mi to a feast of Fish & Co.

Other than that, Cs treated mi to sushi tei !! Damn yummilicious !! n tt poor guy accompanied mi to a whole day of shopping.. Xin Ku Ni Le.. He got mi a veri veri veri veri nice adidas jacket.. Yipee n delicious Godiva Chocos..
Char n cp celebrated wif mi at taka.. Short meet up but hilarious scene.. haha.. They got mi a beach towel in a baby jumper suit (damn kawaii) and a green crutch.. Thanks alot girls !!
n Lastly, my dearest got mi my levis lady jeans !! Though there weren't any celebration cos he sick but i know he did try extra hard to get the present n put everything tog w/o mi knowing, but he failed.. Muahaha..

Anyway, all these weeks are working n working.. The moment i reach home i ko.. Its frickin tired.. n now my dear gonna work on weekends.. equal lesser time for us.. never mind la.. I actually am glad that we sort out the difference alreadi.. =)

I know i am alittle hard to please at times. I was thinking whether if i was being selfish or just plain sensitive.

I felt disappointed again. Is it because i expected too much? I dont know, i dont seems to be able to answer that myself. The same problem happened over and over again. I voiced it out before but i knew that no much attention was given to it. Am i being too petty? Because of it, i feel so insecure. I talked to my mom the other day and she questioned me, is he the one for mi? I cant answer it. I just kept quiet.

I am getting more afraid. Not because i might lose him one day anymore, but because i feel the stress present. Lotsa past disputes due to mis-communication. I opened up. I said wat i felt in a pleasing tone but what i got back was some frustrations.

Yes, i was moody the past 2 weeks due to infection i got. But my frens seems to care more. I just dont understand why. I am too tired to do anything. Happi Belated Birthday to myself. . .

A summary of the whole week?

Erm.. Let mi see.. Everyday's been working n working n working.. But something to be happy about, I changed my job ! Although the pay isnt good, but I m realli hoping that i can learn alot from the job.

Monday, Tuesday n Wednesday were my last days at LTA so i had to hand over my duties to the new girl. I think i m being really paitent ! Explained to her several times but she took a long time to understand the basic flow. Still i teached her paitently cos i wouldnt wan her to get scolding from the stupid boss..
Other than that, I am damn suay lo.. Haiz.. was down wif some infection, went to the doc and it cost 40 plus ! so ex.. The results i got wasnt good, actualli it was bad.. tsk.. Have to go back for a second time check up again.
Dear came to fetch mi after work on Wednesday ! When i know he was fetching mi, i realli couldnt wait for 6 o'clock to come soon. But well, as usual, time passes by so slowly.. Haha, he did brighten up my day though.

n Thursday's my first day at the new company ! But the plant manager's not going to be around for thurs and fri, so i was given a task to do within the 2 days. Well, the task was to draw the plan view of the whole production area. I tot it was easy at first until i went to the site, the stupid production area is damn big ! The whole damn day i was in front of the com drawing the view using Microsoft Paint lo !! Ji dan.. My shoulders and arms were aching at the end of the day. Faintz.

However, on Friday, everything's much better. After i completed the drawing, I just went around the production office to disturb the engineers. Haha, I requested them to bring mi to see the lab and explaining to mi the whole process. Later on in the afternoon, I witness them fixing up the granulation machine. But i am machiam the supervisor, using eye power. Haha..
I am so glad i went into the production team, cos the office ppl are so hostile ! Its like they have gold bars in their mouth lo, cant even smile de. and the only time they did open their mouth was gossiping abt the R&D manager, cant stand them. So i have alreadi decided, i plan to gain and learn as much as possible after a few years before jumping to a better company. Muahaha.
After work, i met up wif wee, rh and rh's bus girl. Lolx. She's realli veri friendly and nice. Cindy joined us later and hmmm, well, i dont know how to explain the situation. lolx.

Saturday; i am supposed to acc dear to work, but haha, i was slping like a pig at home. lolx. Went over to his place to help him pack bag before going to meet the rest at pasir ris for esther's chalet.
Basically, we all were entertaining ourselves la. Haha. got mi, dear, cindy, wee, rh, beng & elaine. Chatting, watching tv, drinking, fighting, etc - thats wat we did there, except for the fighting part la. Cos that involves onli mi n dear haha. Like wat rh say, we were engaged in our world fighting with each other most of the time.
After the chalet, we went bugis for lunch and acc elaine to sim lim in search of her ipod mini. Sadly she cant find anything so all of us went our separate ways. I went over to Dear's place n ko there, till he prepare to go his dinner then i went home.

n now, i am going to replenish more of my beauty slp. Tml's monday !! gotta work again.. so sian ! Haix..